Behind the Stories
Writing to Music
Every story has a pulse. These are the songs, voices, and glorious guitar riffs that helped me find mine.
Playlist 01
Stephâs Mix
I created this playlist because I wanted a soundtrack playing in my mind while I brought Stephanie to life.
She was everything I imagined the ideal teenage girl to be: confident, vibrant, fearlessâand dating a couple of guys. Me? I went to prom with one of my favorite gay men. We had a fabulous time, but I was definitely no Stephanie.
I wanted to write a girl who came from my decade but was as different from me as possible. And so Stephanie was born.
Then, wellâŚshe became a ghost.
This playlist is both a celebration of her world and a clue to what happened to her. Iâm nothing if not sneaky. đ
Enjoy some of the most popular songs of the eraâbut behave yourself. Janet Jackson will call you out if youâre nasty.
Playlist 02
Metalsome Hearts
When I wrote Metalsome Hearts, I was nursing an achy breaky heartâexcuse the pun. I had escaped a nightmare of a relationship and had a lot of feelings to get off my chest. Writing this book helped me work through them without turning into a man-hating troll.
Good job, music!
The playlist begins with A Perfect Circle because, when I created a fictional heavy metal band, I first had to decide what I wanted them to sound like. I said it out loud then, and it still stands:
âIf Metallica and Tool had a baby, it would be Metalsome.â
And that baby would sound a whole lot like A Perfect Circle.
So here it is: a glimpse behind the scenes of a grunge-and-metalhead author determined to bring the music she loved to life. This mix helped me find the soundâand the heartâof Metalsome.
Playlist 03
Metalsome Affair
Metalsome Affair was more complicated for me.
Throughout much of my younger life, I struggled with a variety of issues. Like so many people of my generation, when I first heard Layne Staley sing with Alice in Chains, I felt seen.
Not casually understood. Really seen.
When I began writing Metalsome Affair, I wanted to imagine a different endingâa story in which someone like Layne survived the crushing weight of addiction and found a healthy, enduring love. That was my gift to him.
I never met Layne, but I felt a connection to him. Many of us did. The book is dedicated to his legacy, to the entire Alice in Chains fandom, and to our fierce, enduring love for the beautiful, complicated man behind that extraordinary voice.
This is a darker musical worldâone shaped by struggle, isolation, longing, and the stubborn hope that even someone lost in the shadows might still find a way home.
Playlist 04
Metalsome Holiday
The Metalsome Holiday mix combines Christmas music with two of my great musical loves: Tony Thompson, the legendary drummer for Chicâand one of the finest drummers Iâve ever seenâand the incomparable elegance of Count Basie.
Itâs a festive blend of holiday favorites, irresistible grooves, and some of the coolest old-timey music youâve ever heard.
Pour yourself something warm, turn up the volume, and enjoy.
Best experienced with the volume up and your responsibilities temporarily ignored.